Time flies by lately - kinda forgot about this thing between being slammed at work and trying to keep up with what I call "mom stuff"...but I guess for an update...
we moved mom this past month to a different assisted living facility. We found a new facility in the area and they just seemed to be able to help her needs more. I think this was the easiest and most comfortable move for her! They helped us soo much - from packing her up at her current place and moving her to her new home. It all happened so quickly and the whole staff has been sooo helpful. Mom seems to have adapted well. She always seems to be doing okay when I go see her.
We are working with an attorney to get guardianship of mom. Scary stuff. We are working on the contract and getting the ball rolling - it is such a hard and scary process....and expensive too.
Sad news: I showed mom a picture of herself, her sister and her mom when she was growing up - she was a teenager - she recognized herself and her sister - she did not know who her mom was. Even when I told her - she did not sound convinced that she knew her. That has honestly been a very hard thing to deal with. To know that it is coming; there is a day coming when I will walk into her room and she will have no clue who I am. Every day that passes is a day that I am closer to that day. Its a very sobering, gut-wrenching and heart-breaking thought - and to know that it is most likely going to be a reality in my life. Scares and hurts me more than I think I can convey.
I've been down here lately. Lately it seems like it is just hard to move - I make way to eventually do it, but man is it ever a fight. I have cried more this year than I think ever - change the cry to sobbed. Its really weird, some days - watching mom go through this - makes me realize that life is so short and I need to make the most of it and live each day well - through the way I interact with others and the things I do each day. Other days it is just depressing enough to make me not want to move. I feel like I always alternate between these two extremes.
